a My Walk with God - 2005 - (Moulding & testing): March 2005

My Walk with God - 2005 - (Moulding & testing)

A daily record of events that happened in my life or things that were brought to my mind and thus recorded. This site is to help me rememeber events and goals. How I used my time; my walk with God; my perspective in life, friends and family members... This blog also serves as a reflection of myself and what I have been wanting/ struggling with/ yearning for/ my up's and down's of life. Do sit back and walk this journey on how I walk life with FAITH and HONESTY with God.

Monday, March 28, 2005

Lazy day

I guess it's due to the fact that I have been sleeping late into the night that I wake up late each day. I felt so rotten and evil... So dirty and so silly...

After waking up, I went on to do my usual stuffs before going on to teach Calvin. It's really cool to teach him. Well, something different today. While teaching him, his younger sister who is five, came and join us. She was in a way distracting us when I was teaching Calvin. Shortly after teaching him, his younger brother came in and jumped all around the room. It's so frustrating yet fun to see them jumping around.

Yes, I don't deny the fact that I love kids. How I wish I could have one my own. How do I do that? I don't even have a girlfriend yet. What's more, I am still jobless. Where and how am I going to get one or even have one?

Anyway, Calvin's youngest brother is really naughty and rude. He got his leg stucked between the wall and the bed yet he could yell at me. Come to think of it, it's real funny yet it's their nature. In a way, I taught him a lesson by not helping him until he stop crying. A little heartless but I have to teach him a lesson some way.

I thought of asking him to say sorry and thank you to me but I guess I shall not strive with a kid. I should give in to them and be nice. Treat them as one would to a kid and at times, teach them a lesson or two.

It was about ten in the evening that I left his place. It was one of the latest timing I left since I taught him about five months ago. It was worth it. I also understand from Calvin's parents that he listens to me a lot. So, I guess I've a major part to play in his life...

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Sunday, March 27, 2005

*~*~*~Easter day~*~*~*

It's easter day! Thank God for this day. This was the day and time when Jesus rose from the grave and that's why we celebrated this day because of His victory over death.

Had a really late night yesterday but I am really impressed with the entire drama. I forgot to say in my last entry that Sister Gillian and I spoke to Peter about his life. After speaking to Peter, I find that I am also not as good as what I think I am. I began to find some common grounds between Peter and myself. Both of us are in debt and are also jobless. What a coincidence! Anyway, was able to "scold" myself while talking to Peter about his life.

Anyway, I reached the stadium at around 10am. I know I was a little late for choir but I really had no choice. I woke up late too. I was so happy to be able to grab seats which were rather front but was disappointed as my members were way behind the queue. As a result, I had to seat at the balcony again.

Oh well, what to do? Although it was the third time I've watched the entire drama, I find that the entire drama was really good. It was really an eye opener to me. Not that I did not know about the story but it's the entire scene when "Jesus" was whipped and the bloody scene. Ah, I'm not a saddist... I still remembered how I felt when I was saved about six years back.

Anyway, after the service at Indoor Stadium, all of us met outside the North entrance. I managed to help Qi Wei get the United live CD. I heard some part of the CD last night but felt that it wasn't that good. Subsequently, I find that the CD is not too bad at all. At least, I did not spend in vain.

I had a surprise call from someone whom I've not heard for sometime. Mag called me after the entire service. What a coincidence! She's off from work and wants to meet me up for a show. As my members did not want to go anywhere after the service; except home, I decided to meet up with her.

Actually, I was supposed to meet up with Daphne but I forgot that I have to meet her up at Chinatown point area. Well, what memory I have man. It's after the movie I watched with Ron and Mag that I remembered.

Yup, Ron went on with me to meet up with Mag. On the way to meet up with her, I met my ex-secondary schoolmate, Desmond. He's quit his job with the police force and is now working as a private investigator. He surprises me when he told me that he still remembers that he owes me $40 dollars. Man, that was how many years back and he still remembers.

In the conversation with him, I realized that he have backslided. Not only did he backslided, Sunny Neo too. I was rather disappointed but I know one thing... It's not by chance that I get to see him on the bus and get to know so much things which are happening in my ex-scoolmate's lives. I need to help them out...

Ron, Mag and myself went on to watch "Robots". It is a nice show. I wish I could have that kind of courage like the robots do. They were filled with fighting spirit and the will to survive. They were even willing to want to make things happen even when they are being bullied by the bigger organizations.

Yeah, it may be a show, but I want to be like them. To have the courage to do what I want and not sit down and whine and whine about my surroundings. See a need, meet the need. This sounds really familiar! Pastor did say that before. That's why City Harvest grew from strength to strength. each day.

I must do something. I need the strength and ability... Most of all, I need God's presence to help me find a direction in life. I must not let myself rot...

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Saturday, March 26, 2005

Back to Choir

It's been some time since I last sang for choir. Today, is my first day back in choir. I remembered that after I admit what I'm weak in, I submit to God, after that, I ought to keep on living on and keep serving Him.

Today is actually the anniversary day when I received Christ into my heart. I remembered very clearly what happened and how I was moved to receive Christ. I'm grateful and glad that I've made that decision.

The entire drama production was wonderful. Whenever I watch the scene when Jesus was doing so much good and helping people, to the scene when He was betrayed and tortured, something within me starts to cry out. I still have that urge to want to rush down to stop them and help Jesus but I can't. It's afterall, a drama. I wonder how will I act if I were to be there, two thousand years ago. Will I still do the same thing?

Pastor shared on why Jesus stayed on the cross to give up His life despite the fact that He could have ordered/ called upon the host of angels to come and help Him. I realized that what was said about the bible is true. Jesus is both man and God. He gave up His divine glory to come down to earth, to identify Himself with us, redeem us, show us who God is and also, to let us know of His unconditional love He had for us.

Pastor also shared the story on how a missionary couple, who was in Korea, met with their adopted son. How the adopted son's natural mother died while trying to give him life. I heard that story two years ago. Nevertheless, it touches my heart and God reveled something to me...

The story:
The korean mother was on the run when Korea was in war. She was running from the war but was carrying the baby. On that very day when she ran, the baby was due to be birthed. She had no choice but to stop and, as there was a war, she had no one, to help her. Therefore, she hid under the bridge and gave birth to the baby boy.

It was a freezing day when she gave birth to the baby. To prevent the baby from dying after giving birth to him, she undressed herself until there was totally not a single piece of clothing on her. She's not crazy, she used her clothes to cloth the new-born baby so that he will not die. As a result of this, she frozed to death while protecting her baby.

No one ordered her to do so. She did it willingly. She did it out of her love, so that even if she dies, the baby would have the chance to survive. This love was also showed when Jesus, the Son of God, came and gave His life for us.

When I heard this, I was touched and understood why Jesus came and died for us. This love, so great, yet, there are people who rejects it, renounced it and even left God, bitter. God is a good God. He will give us what He wants. He will give us things which are good for us, not give us bad stuffs. I really wonder...

Lucifer was once an archangel of God. He was banished from heaven as he lead a rebellion and a third of the angels followed after him. I did wonder why did he do that and why would he reject such a wonderful God. When I was watching the entire drama, I saw something. Lucifer became bitter and hated God. He did not want humans to know God because he was punished of his rebellion. If a son is naughty, will the father punish or scold the son? If the father does not love the son, he will just ignore the son and let him be.

God loves everyone and anyone. He does not want us to get hurt. The devil is a bitter, angry and silly devil. He devises plots to get people to believe that God will forgive those who are in difficult situations. He lies, cheat and steal. Whatever seems right, is not of God. What is right is from God. A half truth is a lie.

Story of Slavery:
There was a time when Africians were made slaves. South America was a place where they buy and sell salves. Of course, there are no such things now. However, there was a time when they really did that.

A married couple was captured and placed to be on sale as salve. This couple begged and begged that the person who placed them on sale, to be sold together but they refused. They seperated them. Before they were sold, they hugged together and refused to let go but was forced apart.

One day, a very rich man came to town to look at the salves and saw them. He paid everything that he brought for his journey for that couple and took them home. When he reached home, he tore the title deed of them couple in front of them. It shocked the couple.

The rich man told the couple that they are free to go and he do not want to be their salves. However, they did not want to leave and go back to their country. This is because the chances of them getting caught again is very high and that they might NEVER get this chance anymore. To have met with a good man. So, they requested to work for the rich man until they died.

I began to see something from this. The captor is like the devil. Always wanting you to be his salves. The couple, may be even me or you who is reading. The rich man, is liken to God. God wants us to be free and not be a salve to the devil. However, it's a choice given to us, if we want to get caught again or to be free.

I really am thankful to my Pastor, for such revelations. I am even more thankful to God for raising such a wonderful pastor. Above these, I am thankful to God for being such a wonderful saviour and friend to me. Nothing could say how much I love Him. Actions will speak for itself... :)

I give my heart and all unto God. I do not want to hurt Him anymore. I will want to consecrete myself to God and to do what He wants me to do. I am still human but I will do my very best, not to hurt Him anymore. Jesus, I can't promise anything. Not that I do not want to make commitments. I am weak, but You, are strong. I am poor, but You are rich. I do not want to lie but I need Your strength to help me lead a life full of Your presence and to have victory over sin. I want to love You, until the end of time. Please forgive me for all that I had done. Help me and deliver me from these bondages... It's for me, that You have come... to set me free... :) I am Yours!

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My God... Is AN AWESOME GOD!!!

I've skipped two days and did not record anything there. This is because nothing much really happened as I did not travel around. Also, I was at home most of the time.. However, I was tempted into things which I have not given myself to for the past couple of months.

Actually, I was feeling rather condemned and down for the two days which I never record. Ok, I'll come clean... I sinned against God and felt ashamed to face God. In fact, am also disappointed with myself. I felt that I am somewhat like Peter. Using the very same mouth, which confesses that he loves Jesus and will go through everything regardless what's to come. However, the next moment, he denies Jesus thrice in a row. That was what happened Jesus was captured before He went on to the cross, to be nailed, on the cross of Calvary.

I just talked to Chermaine and Erwin. They were supportive and encouraged me to move on. I was glad that somehow, I spoke to her. In the process, I realized something and had a revelation during the converstaion with her.

I realized that I am still human when I sinned. Besides that, I was reminded of what Pastor Kong preached. The story of the Potter and Clay. When the Potter is moulding up the clay, He will look for flaws, to see if the product which He had moulded, is durable or able to withstand the pressure that is to come.

I know God is taking note of what I am doing now. He spoke to Chermaine of what I had been doing and through her, He said that it's ok to sin once in a while as I am still a human. I need to keep myself right before God and not go on sinning as frequently.

As I spoke to Chermaine, she was saying that God had a hard time fixing her up. I don't know how or why but my reply to her was this. "Yes its always hard to fix a sinner... but when the person is really fixed... u have to understand.... it's a Master piece". Not everyone is perfect but we can go on to be better.

Indeed, there may be things which seems to be against me but Bible did say this thing. All things work for those who loves God. I love God but I'm stll human. I may not be perfect but I'm on my way to perfection. The fact that I sin, is because I am still human and am subjected to sin.

I really have the heart and desire to be better. I know God knows what I want and what I need even before I asked of Him. I do not want to disappoint Him and I do pray hard that He will give me the strength and will to be a better man, a man with true self-control. :)

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Thursday, March 24, 2005

Strange feeling...

Before I fell asleep last night, I felt funny on my tummy. Especially on my belly button. It hurts when I press it into my body slightly. It hurts and feels uneasy... When I woke up, I felt the same sensation too. I really wonder what's going on... Is it because I did not have proper meals for the past two days?

Brother Jeffery called me up, wanting to meet up with me. The moment I got up, I took about 30mins to prepare to meet up with him.

It was a nice time to be able to fellowship with him. I learnt a great deal of stuffs and was able to follow him almost all around Singapore to deliever goods with him. We shared our lives with each other and told how we got to know God...

Time flew and I had to go teach Bryan and WeiKeong... My primary 4 students. As usual, WeiKeong did not do his school's homework and I only can help Bryan out while WeiKeong was copying his friend's work.

After teaching the both of them, I quickly left and went on to Calvin's place. While teaching Calvin, Bryan's mum gave me a call and asked if I could teach Bryan one to one instead of teaching both WeiKeong and Bryan together. It's a hard decision to make. This is because I really do not know if I can afford the time to teach. I really need to pray for greater capacity to handle the long hours of teaching if I were to teach them individually.

Another problem is this... I do not know how to charge them if I were to teach them individually. Maybe Bryan got to sacrifice by paying more... Maybe... both got to pay a little more... However, I am really unsure if I would be able to afford the time to do so. Nevertheless, I need to get a full time job fast... I am thinking of being a teacher/ technical staff etc... I am not sure what to do but I seriously need God's direction to direct me in where to go and what to do...

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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

GLORY to God!!!

After praying last night, I felt better and did not feel as bitter as before. However, the damages been done. When I saw dad, he seems to be letting me have my own ways. He left some cash for me on my desk when I was asleeped. When we met in the room, our eyes did not meet. What I did really hurt him deeply. I really am at a loss of what to do...

I prepared myself to go and teach Calvin once again. When I reach his place, I realized that he was crying. After sometime, his maid told me that his mum just canned him as he forgot to bring his new water bottle home. When I saw his mum, she looked angry and said that he's been losing his water bottles too many a time. That was the reason why he was canned...

I really pity him. I guess, this is compassion... He was crying when he was even having his dinner. What a pitiful look... I really felt like wanting to give him a hug, to comfort him. I spoke to him for a while and his maid passed my pay to me.

Shortly after I taught him, his mum came into the room and tried to frighten him by asking if I want to bring him home. I find that its the wrong way to treat a child. Anyway, she came in, wanting to pass me my pay. Initially, I was rather surprised because his dad passed the money to the maid to pay me, without her knowledge. When she wanted to pass the cash to me, I was naturally surprised. When I told her that I've gotten my pay, I can sense that she was glad that I was honest enough to tell her the truth.

After a period of time, Calvin's younger sister was heard crying. Actually, I thought that Calvin's mum was on a canning spree but found out that she cried because her youngest brother scolded her. WOW! He's like four years old and is so fierce. What manner of a person will he be?

I witnessed, first hand, of his temper and what he said to his mum. It's very disrespectful! I sensed that it's not the small boy whom I knew. He seems to be another person. Possessed... came to my mind...

After I went back to resume teaching Calvin, I heard him crying... His mum was canning him and teaching him who's boss. I really think that he deserves the canning because he's been really too much and disrespectful... While talking about him... I realized something... The entire event reminded of myself...

When I got home, I call up dad and apologised to him. I explained to him about my behavior and the reason behind it. He accepted my call and told me that it's alright... I'm really glad that things worked out well and that I am able to get reconciled with my parents. As the saying goes... There's no overnight bad blood within a family...

I really thank God for showing me so many things within a span of two days. I will learn from the things which happened and will change for the better. I want to be a better person, not for myself but also for Christ, Church, personally and for my future wife to be whom I do not know, who will she be...

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Monday, March 21, 2005

I've had enough... What stinking attitude!

Earlier, my parents tried to talk to me but I don't know what's wrong with me. I got so disappointed with them that I even refused to talk to them. I felt anger bottled up within myself and I left home unhappy when it's time for me to go and teach Calvin.

Before I left, dad was calling me. I showed him attitude. This is really bad and it STINKS!!! What in the world am I doing? Why am I showing such attitue towards my very own dad? I am no longer young!!! What CHILDISH behavior!

Normally, I would be smiling or be happy when I got out of family and when I reached Calvin's place. However, I could not smile at all. I can't feel the presence of God at all. It's all my stupid attitude that causes it all. I should heed what was being said on Saturday. I ought to lift it up unto God and let go of it.

After teaching Calvin, I decided to give my aunt a call. I am so glad that she took the call because I tried to call her earlier but she wasn't home earlier. Now, I am able to tell her my decision. I've had enough and I do not want to hate my parents and myself because of money. Nothing in the world is able to get me another mum/ dad who gave me this life. Of course, God is the One who gives life but I must respect my parents in this. I guess its time for me to throw in the towel. I really cannot take it anymore. Finally, I told my aunt... I want to quit... She said its ok and I hung up.

I felt so relieved when I got it off my chest. I felt happier... When I got home, I seeked for God's help and asked God to help me to submit myself to His hands. I do not want to grieve my parents in such little things. I want to be a better person who is responsible and mature. I am a grown up now. Not a child anymore. I cannot just escape from problems but face it. I cannot say that I love God if I cannot do what God says. To love one another, just as how, I have loved myself.

Before I went to bed, I cried before God and gave Him all my problems and worries. I also asked God to forgive me and give me the chance to repent; to make up with my parents.

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Sunday, March 20, 2005

Thoughts... strings of events...

It's sunday! Yes, time for cell group. I really wonder how many would turn up today in cell... I met up with Ron and Rickson before we left for Derrick's place. JingJie unable to turn up due to parental objections. Something interesting here...

Sometime back, JingJie told me about what his mum told him after he came to Church. I've realized something which is very interesting and I realized that the evil one is really not one who is creative! I've found a certain pattern in satan's attack on those who are Christians.

First, he would think that those who goes to Church are just going for a moment. However, when the person frequents the Church more often, his kingom will be under threat. He would begin to use the family members of the church-goer to say this:

1. Ever since you've been to Church, I've been constantly having nightmares/ falling sick.
2. It's because you've been going to Church so often, see, there's no peace at home. There's conflict between our god and Jesus. Stop going to Church.

These are some of the few excuses/ most common stuffs I've heard of or have personally encountered with. After that, the Church goer will get to choose. Either to choose God or to choose to listen to their parents. If they begin to obey God more than their parents, they will use parents to set pressure upon the church goer with this:

1. If you go Church during weekends, I'd disown you
2. You are grounded! You are not allowed to go anyway on weekends.
3. I'm deducting your pocket money from today on. This is to prevent you from giving to the Church and prevent you from going out.

If he/she is able to overcome these, the evil one will use try ways and means to get the Church-goer to get distracted with a girl/ guy whom they will fall in love with. Normally, this person will be one who will be a non-Christian. Who will entice you to get away from the Church or "challenge" the Christian of temptations with the person whom they love. If the other party is a Christian, the other party will mostly be one who is not so changed in life. Always wanting to go out with you so as to distract your studies. At the end, you'll lose commitment to God as well as to your studies.

You'll also lose focus on reading the bible/ praying. More problems will begin to surface up. Things like family problems/ BGR problems/ financial problems/ studies/ work problems. Then the person will find that being a Chrsitian is really difficult.

Then, there's other attacks as well. Either your family members will get into accidents/ fall sick/ go to a medium/ ask for divinations, so as to convience the family members that it's because this person goes to Church, that's why things happen. If the person stop going, then these will end. What evil thoughts of the evil one!

If all these fails, the evil one will begin to attack on the person's personal life. He will go all out to challenge the person's value/ integrity etc... Causing the person to feel condemned. He will also use the person's self-image, integrity etc to make the person lose focus on God and Church. He will also cause the person to find faults with the Church members/ leaders/ Church system. He will also throw more temptations/ challenges/ failures (mostly your past failure) to cause the Church-goer/ Christian to loose faith in God.

These are some of the many things I've either experienced or found in common. However, I realized something. That God understands and have promised ALL Christians that trials/ persecutions/ problems will never cease. Being Christian does not mean that we will have a life, bed of roses. However, we are to trust in God for He have already overcomed everything that had happened and is to come. We are to rejoice instead when these things do happen for Satan realized that we are being serious with God and that we are also a DANGER to the kingdom of darkness.

See, what vices/ traps will the evil one use/ do to get us out of God's will? Anyway, cell group was great. Although there are about 16 of us, only 3 of them are girls. This is a rare sight in my Church. I believe that the cell group, N20 and W332 are special because majority of us are guys instead of ladies. I believe that God is going to raise up great guys from these two cell group!

Anyway, after cell group, we had our usual fellowship. I was glad that Alex came to join us after his holiday to China. It's was good to have such a brother. Although he is new to cell and Church, its alright. I believe God can use me to mould him, to make him a better man.

The relationship between me and Derrick is getting better. At least we now talk and joked. It's a little strange when we spoke but I know, this will change for the better. A cell with unity will only GROW from STRENTH TO STRENGTH, GLORY TO GLORY!

After cell, we moved on to Orchard. Sister Gillian, Derrick, Ron, Rickson, QiuPing and myself went to town as we have different agenda to be there. We spent another 40mins together on the bus and it was a good time to fellowship with one another.

When we reached Orchard, Derrick had to go to work. So, the rest of us went off to Takashimaya and we window shopping. Sister Gillian went to look at some baby's bed and baby stuffs while the rest of us, head on to HMV.

After Rickson was done with the shopping for CDs for Bryan, we head down to City Hall where we met up with ChangChin.

Meeting with yet another... Kevin
It seems that the name, Calvin/ Kevin/ Kelvin is a very common name. Anyway, those who are called by this name are all different from each other though they might be of the same gender. Alright... Enough of crapping.

He tried to introduce me some insurance policy and plans but too bad. My finances were in a little doubt. As a result, I had to reject him for the time being.

Guitar Class
Well, I am glad to be back in the guitar class. Not that I am doing very well in playing guitar but rather, its because I want to learn more. There are alot of things which I am not good at. I want to be a better guitarist.

After guitar class, I met up with Philip. I met him up at HMV's Marche. Actually, I was rather hungry but I do not have enough. Therefore, I did not get any food but stayed on to talk to him to hear him out in his problems. I hope to really sow something into his life where he will really benefit and be changed for a better person.

It's been a tiring day. I really do not feel like going to work. It's not because I dislike working. Bible says that if I am not able to provide for my very own family, I am WORSE off than a non-believer. Now, that's the real reason why I was so fed up with myself and my situations...

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Saturday, March 19, 2005

Marriage... Service with... sigh...

Haha... I am not the one married. I'm still single and available. It's my ex-classmate cum Church friend, Charlie's big day! I'm so glad that someone is getting married. Due to this excitement, I wasn't able to get to rest and also due to the things which were in my mind.

Anyway, I woke up rather late but good thing was that I was able to get to Alice's (Charlie's bride) place on time. It was really fun when we were going through the custom of getting the bride. The guy have to be accompained by his friends/ buddies to go to the bride's place to be "challenged" by her friends/ sisters. It was a time where the groom would be tested on how important the bride is and how much she's worth and how much he would be willing to do for her.

Over there, we spent about an hour, trying to convience the girls to let the groom get his bride and let them be together. Man, Charlie was really teased to the core. From singing aloud in the HDB estate, till everyone around the block popped out their heads to find out whats wrong to drinking of disgusting stuffs to eating funny stuffs, to getting drinks from neighbours to "paying" our way in to help Charlie get his bride. It was disgusting but it's fun to see such things happening even now.

When we reached Church, I became the videoman, in charge of fliming the entire process. Mervynn was supposed to be the videoman but as he needed to play the guitar for Charlie, I took over. Vincent, took over my duties by taking charge of the food and beverage. I really am grateful and thankful for such a wonderful brother in both Vincent Teo and Mervynn Lim. They are what I call, buddies and good pals!

Service with Sy
The entire service with Sy Rogers was really wonderful. At first, I was feeling very down due to the troubles at home and what happened these couple of weeks. Rev Sy Rogers spoke on "Keep on, keeping on". Sy Rogers is an Americian. He was once a gay who almost became a woman more than twenty years back. I really admire him and his courage. Most of all, I really admire the way he spoke and the eloquence he posses. Its really amazing!!!

He used alot of illustrations in the service. He used the illustration on silver and gold under-going through the process of being pure and perfect. There were many other illustrations he used but the most vivid and memorable one was the final one. The one which he shared on a figure angel which his daughter had many years back.

He shared that his daughter once had a angel figure which was fragile but beautiful. In order that the angel would not "die prematurely" he placed it up on a shelf beyond the reach of his daughter.

So one rainy day, his daughter and him was playing around in the house. As a young girl, his daughter was unlike those little girls. She was rather naugthy and boyish. She'd wrestle with him and even "fight" him till he's bruised.

On that day, she was chasing him in and out of the room till he came to a dead end. His daughter prepared herself, ready to fight with Rev Sy. So it was, when she made her move, he tried to escape but in the process of escaping, he accidently knocked the angel off the shelf and it smashed onto the ground.

Both his daughter and himself tried to save the angel but their efforts were wasted. Instead of crying upon seeing her favourite angel smashed beyong recognition, she told dad to use glue to paste it back.

So, Sy tried his very best to stick the angel back to its original state but ended up with a mosaic product. When he presented to his daughter, he apologised to her and wanted to give her his credit card to get whatever she wants. Instead of crying and making noise on the imperfection of the angel figurine, she made a very profound statement for a young girl age five.

She said to her dad. Although this firgure is not perfect, it does not matter. What matters is that she still love it regardless of its state.

See my friend, what Rev Sy wants to convey is this. Regardless who we are and what have we become. Christians who have sinned against God on purpose or not, God still loves us no matter what. God loves everyone; even the none sinners too. However, how can God help you when you do not trust Him? Its like how do you trust your mobile phone that it'll always get through when you are in emergency if you do not even want to have a mobile phone.

No matter who we are, straight, gay or even sinners, God still loves us and have sent His One and Only Beloved Son, Jesus Christ of Nazareth, to die for us, on the cross of Calvary. If He, being God, have humbled Himself to live as a man, which He need not, come for us, sinners. How much God have felt for us. How His heart bleeds whenever you reject Him over and over again?

Upon hearing this wonderful message from Sy, I felt so touched and glad. Even if my earthly father had let me down and have hurt me so much. I am glad that I still have a Heavenly Father in heaven who loves me and I have a huge family which loves me too.

I really am grateful and thankful to God for all that He's done. Easter's in a week's time. I can't forget the scene which I saw through Passion of Christ last year. It's very fresh and vivid in my mind. Last but not least, I still remember how I was saved in 1999 and every single event that went pass...

Father God, I love You. Come and fill me with Your love and peace. Give me directions in life so that I'll not be lost. Show me where to go, so that I can have a career that will have good prospect and that I'll shine over there as well as in my family. It's never by might nor by power that I'll be able to do what I am doing. It's by Your Holy Spirit that I am able to do the things I am doing.

I want to pledge my love and everything of me, into Your mighty hands. Come Holy Spirit, fill me and make me whole once again. I pray, in Jesus' name. Amen.

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Friday, March 18, 2005

Blessings to trouble...

This ought to be the last day of the course with Sy Rogers, however, I did not turn up for any of the session at all. What a waste! I shouldn't have spent that much of time with Cheryl earlier on and as a result of that, I did not turn up for the course.

About 2pm, I left home to "tradistic" to redeem my lappy. I am so excited and happy that I'd be having my lappy back but one problem I face is that, what do I want my lappy for? I'm not een using it and it seems to be a waste right now.

Good thing was that I still have some money with me. If I were to break to my dad that I ought to pay $80 for the reinstallation and repair fee, he'd jump at me.

When I got my lappy back, I was really satisfied and glad that it's now in working condition and that they have changed the casing of my lappy without my request. If I were to bring my lappy down to Acer, they would have charged me more than that. In fact, I did asked if they were to change the casing of my entire lappy, it would cost me at least more than a hundred dollars. I really am grateful to God for the fact that I got it for FREE!!!

After getting my lappy, Kay called up and wanted to meet up with me initially. As I was on my way down to get my phone repaired, we did not meet up at all.

Kay's a nice malay lady in her mid 30s I suppose. I got to know her through IRC and have now known her for about a year or so. She's friendly and she's married. Good to have friends who show concern and care for me...

I visited Kelvin Teng at his shop to get my phone repaired. It's been a long time since I last met Kelvin around early last year. Anyway, I am glad that he did repair my phone for me. This time, he did not get me to sell my phone off to him or charge me at funny prices. In fact, I really thank God for him. This was because he repaired my phone for free though my phone's datas were gone due to software corruption which hinders the phone from even starting up.

It was about 8pm when I reached home. When I reached home, I heard my dad complaining and my sister sowing discord between me and my dad. I really cannot understand why are they like that. It's simply beyond my understanding. Why should a family backstab each other rather than encouraging one another? Is it so hard to encourage one another? Or am I living in a fantasy world? Is it too much to ask for my family members to even support me when I am just starting out to work?

The worst disappointment was towards my dad. He's my dad and I'm his eldest son whom he dotes upon. Why should he feel so negative towards me? Why is he not even supportive when I said my aunt cut my pay and I want a change of job because with the pay I receive from working for them, I'd never survive!

Now he's saying something which will make you laugh! He's saying I'm unable to support myself etc... My own younger sister, my very sibling... told me to support myself and stop living off my parents. She is right to say that I ought to support my parents and not leech them but she forgot the fact that I am just starting out in my job and this is my very first full time job! My very first month too! Why are they coming on so hard on me?

Funny that the very same dad, who told me that having low pay is alright is asking me to depend on myself. How can I, when I do not even have a single cent even in my bank? Is this family, I'm living in, always so money-minded? If so, I'd really want to leave this family and move on to other place, never to be contacted by them at all.

Don't get me wrong. I do not hate them but I am really disappointed in them. Why must they do this to me? Why can't they be a little more patient? Don't my parents understand me? I've longed wanted to support my parents eight years ago. However, due to national service and studies, I was not able to do what I wanted to do. I thought that now, I'm working at my grandfather's factory, I can at least have some cash to live on, to support not only myself, my parents but also to pay off my debts owned to insurance company. I really am very hurt and disappointed...

Is there anyone who can identify with me? Is there anyone who can understand what I am going through? I want to leave the factory for another job... I really do but I've started not long... God, lead me the path and show me Your way..

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Girls... sigh...

Strange thing about relatives... I DID tell my aunt that I needed to be off for these three days and yet she still called me up and asked why I did not go and work. It's real funny to be asked with these kind of questions when I did tell her a couple of days before hand.

Anyway, I missed it again. I did not wake up early and did not turn up for the course Sy Rogers had for the Church. What commitment do I have? Why am I such a slack??

Jingjie came to my place and I taught him how to play guitar. He stayed over here for sometime before he left. It was fun to teach someone things I learnt which I learnt about two weeks back. I think I enjoy teaching things I am interested in.

After teaching JingJie, Cheryl, whom I knew via hi5 wanted to meet up with me. I had a chat with her till about 3am in the morning. Her boyfriend just broke off with her and needed someone to talk to her. So, being a friend, I talked to her and tried to talk to her to forget about that guy if she feels so terrible. One thing I learnt through th efforts of wanting to comfort girls are that if they would not listen, just listen to them and then never bother to talk them into forgetting anyone.

If they want to be hurt, just inform them about the consequences and what they will end up and that will do, as a friend. There is no point at all in trying to reason much with them at all. They will, in the end, still want to do things their ways. That's if the girl is stubborn and still wants it her way. In this, I would name it as Adult Adolesence...

I DO NOT want my future girlfriend/ wife to be like that... I'd rather remain single if that's to be the case...

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Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Fateful day when...

Actually, I was to go for Sy Roger's workshop/course in the morning in Church but due to the late night, I was not able to make it. I've disappointed myself, Sister Gillian and God.

I rested for the entire day and it was really good to have time for God and myself at home. Also, I tried to catch up with Bible reading for this month...

Honestly, I really felt like wanting to stop teaching tuition and also to call up my aunt to tell her that I want to quit. I really do not like to work there anymore... No will at all for me to be there or to work. Yes, money is the problem because the financial plans I've planned out, is completely destoryed by that news she broke to me.

In fact, my monthly expenditure is about $500 per month before I work. The money are spent mostly on transportation/ food and other stuffs. I need to save up, pay for insurance, repay debts, buy books, repair my computer stuffs etc... I really wonder what or how am I going to survive on with that little amount...

My phone died... I felt so terrible. I am unable to get the contacts I needed and arrgghhh.... I am so frustrated. My lappy needed to be repaired and I have to fork out $80 for it. Now, my mobilephone... I want to repair my diskman too... Where am I to find the cash???

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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

No will to continue working...

I woke up late and made Uncle ah Heng wait for me for about 5minutes. I felt bad about it...

When I got back to work, I felt rather unwilling to work. I felt like slacking over there and do nothing. Just walk here and there, pretending to be busy. When my uncle finally came, he told me that I need to draw this and that. Which I did draw some of it.

Sister Gillian called me and told me that Sy Rogers will be having a course on how to deal with those who are sexually inclined in the wrong direction. I was so excited that I agreed on it and told my aunt that I needed to be on course for the following three days. She just told me that I need to get the drawings done. Which I did do whatever I can do. I worked till about 6:30 but was still unable to complete it.

After work, I went directly down to Calvin's place, to teach tuition. My internet friend, Daphane replied my sms and she called me up to have a chat. I ended up chatting with her for about 30mins. Trying to convince her to forget the guy whom she like for he is very double minded. One moment, he'll say he love her and the next, he'll say, "forget about me" I wonder what in the world is coming... Moreover, he's a Christian! She's not a Christian... So... I'd only do what's right... Anyway, I needed to hung up on her as I had to continue teching Calvin...

Teaching Calvin is fun but I do get rather put off by him too. He'd not do the work I gave him and he's very forgetful. I really wonder if he really don't understand or is he faking it. I wonder...
On my way home, I was listening to the Church's "life" album. It is rather old but the songs moved my heart. I felt God's very presence comforting me. I felt I am very locked down by the circumstances around me. I felt that I am not really free to do the things I want. When I reached home, I played my game for awhile and then prayed for awhile... I did not linger long in the presence of God as it was very late and I needed to attend Sy Roger's lesson, which I wanted to go.

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Monday, March 14, 2005

Some thoughts

Since the day my aunt revealed that I'd be paid $40 daily, I've kind of lost that will to work over there in the company. Yes, I am trained in this area and that area but there's no communication when I work.

My Uncle's always out. He's the one giving me the work to do. I'm alone sitting at the table, doing the work given to me. There's only less than 5 people around in my area. My aunt (mum's younger sis) and her hubby are always busy with their work, and I don't really like talking to her hubby, namely cause he likes to put people off. That's one thing I dislike. He likes to boast this and that, comment whenever he's not asked of any comments etc... Proud and likes to boast... Then comes my first aunt, who pays me such low salary. I'd sometimes wonder if I did really make the correct choice in joining them.

Anyway, I'm supposed to go for my medical appointment but I woke up late for it. I tried to get a taxi but the taxi seems to run away from me. They do not stop at my side and always missed me. I'm so frustrated! At the end, I cancelled the appointment and made another appointment on the 1st of April, 9am, which coincides with the day when I collect my in-sole, but at a later timing.

Cheng Hao gave me a call and talked to me. He asked me about what do I really want in life. I can say I want this and that but I lack the motivation and the will to do it. Worse of all, I lack the direction and "goal" to do the things I want. I can't seem to find a way to break this! I must find a purpose in life. I cannot go on living a life without purpose!

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Sunday, March 13, 2005

Healing came like a Tsunami...

JingJie called me up at about 6plus. After talking to him and setting the time to meet, I got back to sleep. In the midst of the dreams, I felt someone asking me, move your ankle and see if it’s still painful. I moved and realized that it’s not painful anymore. I am healed!

Though Rev Benny’s not preaching today, both Ron and Jingjie wants to be there early to get good seats. We were the first few to reach there at about 8:30am. It was really scary to see crowds building at such early time. If we were there later, I really do not know what will happen.

During service, I felt very comfortable and fresh! Towards the end of the service, Rev Kong prayed for those who are sick. Many raised up their hands and want to be prayed for. I prayed for JingJie and I realized that the same sensation Rev Benny Hinn and Pastor Joshua talked about, was upon me. I felt electricity/ numbness (not due to lack of circulation) upon my pair of hands. I laid my hands upon Jingjie and prayed for him. After sometime, he felt better!

Now I began to see something. What I felt yesterday, was truly from God. That voice was not God’s voice. It was to discourage me and make me leave God. Now I know why I fell down when Rev Benny prayed for the entire Church. It was God’s anointing and presence upon me, empowering me for ministry.

Second guitar lesson
I realized that the way that I used to press chords were wrong. Not totally wrong but some were in a way wrong. I need to strengthen my pinkie finger!

Finally, I bought my very own tuner. It is rather costly but it’s cool! I love it very much. I must treasure it!

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Double service, Double anointing, Double POWER!

I did not reach the stadium early as I know that there will be enough places for us. I just felt that we’ll be able to make it in. I met up with the usual two JingJie and Ron for service. Once again, God did not fail. The difference is that God moved in such powerful ways that many fell under the anointing of God. (I have been praying for my ankle to be healed. I want to have total healing)

On the third service, Rev Benny prayed for the entire Church. This is really exciting because I do want to be able to heal others by praying too. Everyone lifted hands and before Rev Benny prayed, I felt something touched my hands and I fell immediately. I felt as if something real heavy crushed upon me and it was really heavy on my chest when it happened. I felt I lost something… I tried to get up but was not able too despite that I tried…

After Rev Benny prayed, only than was I able to get back up. We continued praying for the sick and things happened again. Miracles and wonders took place. Deep within my heart, I was rejoicing but another voice came into my mind… It said, “You’re condemned. God had left you and that you’re not anointed to witness for Him”. When that came, I felt really uneasy and was pleading to God not to let me go. I pleaded to Him that I be a witness and never lack His presence…. I am afraid of losing Him!

When I reached home, I prayed for awhile and felt the presence of God upon me faster and closer than before. I do not understand what’s going on… I do not want God to leave me nor forsake me. I want God to be in His presence forever. I need Him and want Him so much that it grieves me when that thought came to my mind. I prayed and told God all that is within my heart. I poured my heart and soul unto Him till I felt peace.

After praying, I couldn’t get to rest. Though I am to meet Jingjie and Ron at 7am later, I really couldn’t get to rest. I went to the living room and watch the match between Manchester United and Southampton. I managed to watch only the first half as I was really dead tired during the first half…

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Friday, March 11, 2005

Healing Crusade...

I reached Singapore Indoor Stadium at about 1030hrs. I know it’s very early to be there as the crusade starts at 1900hrs. I had a feeling that I ought to be there early. I called up JingJie and Ron and decided to meet them there.

When I reached the stadium, I was real SHOCKED!!! Perplexed! There are so many people even at such an early time. It’s real unbelievable! Quickly, I moved towards the queue and found myself comfortably seated at the north entrance.

Shortly after I sat down, I too out my bible and wanted to read as well as to catch up with the bible reading program. Before I could even start reading, the lady before me spoke to me. After the conversation, I realized that she’s an Indonesian. She shared her life experience with me and prophesied to me.

Now I know why I am there so early… Anyway, she told me that I am called to be an intercessor and that I will become popular… I will bring many youths/ teens to Christ etc… I will bear that in heart and see if her prophecy will come to pass… If it does, then she’s sent by God, if not, it’s not by God but her own…

Anyway, the queue built up rather fast. It seems that when she finished, It was about 1pm. It was a long chat and I did not realize time flew past, especially when I was reading the bible. Ron came at about 1300hrs while JingJie came at 1400hrs.

These two brothers are really interesting. We talked and joked. Played with JingJie’s new phone and soon, I found myself talking with Edison, another Indonesian. It seems that I have been talking with plenty of Indonesians today.

The time came when part of the Indoor Stadium were blocked out due to the crowd coming in. The people behind me were cutting queue and well… What can I say? I don’t know… Am I being pious or have I expected too much of Christians? Why are they behaving in this way? Yes, I do cut queues at times but… They tried to squeeze into the stadium and pushed one another. They forget that there are some who are elderly and some who are having difficulty walking.

Both Ron and JingJie went around looking for seats. They were so active that they jumped over the barrier and wanted to take seats at the floor area only to be caught and rejected by the ushers.

I had a hard time calling JingJie as I lost both Ron and him. Maybe due to poor connection, I got cut off. I lost my cool and raised my voice when I got thru the second time. I shouldn’t have done so… Maybe the lady’s right. When I move on in God, I tend to find something in me that I need to get rid off. This is one of which I need to rid of.

Finally, I was reconciled with both of them and did enjoy the service with Rev Benny. God healed many sick. There are those who came in stretchers, wheelchairs and crutches. At the end of the service, God moved mightily. Many were healed. Lame walked, paralyzed walked, blind see, deaf heard. There was such mighty move of God that the choir team (more than 600 of them) fell under the power of God when Rev Benny swept his hands across their direction. They fell at one go.

It was a worthwhile journey. I am able to witness the powers of God first hand and saw Rev Benny do things. It will be something worth looking forward in time to come, if he ever comes back…

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Thursday, March 10, 2005

Trusting God despite not understanding...

When I reached factory, I was really excited. Not due to work or any pay adjustments but the fact that I am trusting God that when I invite my uncle to come for the healing conference, he will come. I fasted and prayed…

I am really pleased with myself that I fasted. It’s been sometime since I last fasted. I felt closer to God.

When uncle came to factory in his wheelchair, I was glad and prayed secretly that God will move in his heart and that he would say yes to go Church this weekend. He wanted to see Rev Benny Hinn in actions but when I wanted to show him the clip where Rev Benny was in action, he did not want to watch. In fact, he rejected me. I feel rejected but I am glad that I tried asking.

During lunch, I spoke with Chermaine over the phone. I felt so agitated that I just wanted someone to talk to. I need someone to talk especially when the comment my dad made left me baffled! What he said was real funny (not the joke sense but illogical sense) and unreasonable. He asked why is it that I mind the amount of pay I receive so much etc…

Yes I know its better to earn some than to earn nothing but I must look to swim forward and not let the waves drown me and let me die. I do not know what but I know I have a Spirit that will not allow me to be defeated. I will never live a life of defeat!

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Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Courage to witness... Demoralized... Frustrated...

Finally, I have the opportunity and courage to speak to my uncle. I had a good time speaking to him and witnessing to him, telling him about the signs and wonders God are doing even in our very own generations. However, his heart is closed though he did “listen” to me.

Well, I can only persist and keep on asking. I am not asking him to convert but to go attend the Healing Crusade taking place this weekend.

The delivery man came back late and thus; I was not able to get back home as early as before. I am frustrated with the fact that I am unable to draw a drawing properly and encountered some difficulty in drawing it.

Well, I guess working for our very own family members does have its short comings. Due to the fact that I am working for five days a week, my aunt told me that instead of getting paid $1.3k per month, she offered to pay me $40 per working day. Only when I am working, will I be paid.

This came in like a shock, a very unpleasant “surprise” for me. Before she broke this news to me, I was planning how to pay back my debts. Including the one JingJie helped paid for my guitar. I called up most of the debtors but all I can say is that it’s all in vain.

I felt like wanting to quit there and then but I chose to talk to my mum first before any actions. I know I am no longer young but I still want to let them know what’s going on before quitting the job.

When I told my mum and dad about it, instead of agreeing that I ought to find another job, they scolded me instead. For what? Well, for saying that the pay’s low. I mean if I were to work for a month. I am paid $40 per day, I can only work 20 days per month which sums up the gross pay to be S$800 per month. That’s EXCLUDING CPF!

What am I going to live on? This is real atrocious! Even IF I am paid about S$1.3 per month, after CPF, I’d be left with about a thousand. I will still have problems as I also want to plan for other future events in my life. For example, to get a wife, house or even car. What am I going survive on? How am I going to find a wife when I am not even earning much? How am I going to support my family members? (Namely my parents) and if I were to be married, what about kids/ studies/ food/ transportations/ bills etc…?

After reaching home, I saw some newspaper advertisements and something took my attention… A petrol station is paying S$1.6k for someone to wash a car! Man, I might as well go there and wash cars. Talk about skills… This is too much! I am super under-paid.

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Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Back at work...

Spent a long time in God’s presence and was almost late when I went down to hike a ride from Ah Heng. I still do felt reluctant to get back to work for my grandfather. I did not have any food in the morning and asked Ah Heng if he could bring me to the canteen near the factory.

The way that I dressed today surely brought a few to turn their heads upon me. However, I am sure, there were no young ladies for me to attract to myself in the factory. (Hahaha…)

When I reached office, I read up bible, devotions and was also listening to my mp3s. I was really blessed to be doing those things. I got myself busy with the work and was busy drawing the drawings. Improving and correcting the errors.

After lunch, I got back to work. It wasn’t before long that grandfather wanted to drive out. I rushed out and accompanied him. I also volunteered to drive him out. At first, he was reluctant to let me drive but in the end, I was given the chance to drive him out to meet my uncle.

When I met grandfather’s supposed friend, I realized that the man was actually my grandfather’s cousin’s son. In short, this guy is actually my mum’s cousin, who’s about the same age as my grandfather.

When he invited us to his place, I was rather surprised to find out that this uncle’s son actually has a daughter-in-law who is in her twenties, from Vietnam. She has a typical Vietnamese looks. She was rather surprised upon seeing me. She looked at me for sometime and went off as she had other chores yet done.

Now I know why grandfather asked if I have a girlfriend and why he talked about someone finding a wife from the agencies. I do pray, with all my heart that I will never have to undergo this stage. I pray that my future girlfriend/ wife will be someone whom I know, as friend FIRST then, proceed on to be my girlfriend/ wife. I do hope for someone who will understand me, the language and of course, most importantly, languages. Ultimately, she got to be a Christian and that I am also to understand and trust her too.

When we got back factory, it was time for me to go home. Time flew and I was really glad that it did.

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Monday, March 07, 2005

Not so much events...

Wei Keong cancelled the tuition. I wanted to take a rest after a long week and thus cancelled the tuition with Calvin (Primary 2 boy) too.

I spent the day doing some catch up with some friends and I realized that both Jessica and Jasmine knew each other. Interesting… They were once camp mates and Jasmine thought I was joking and jesting with her when I told her that I am also going for a BBQ at Pasir Ris this coming Saturday.

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Sunday, March 06, 2005

First cell after multiplications

It was the first cell after the multiplication. It was real cool but many from W332 turned up. My! There are a lot of guys in my current cell group. I must do something to this cell… I want to minister to the brothers as my younger brothers and make sure that I will help bring up a new generation of leaders. To help rise up a group of young men who will be on fire for God!

When I went to the cell, though I am not really a youth compared to them, I felt I was being released into something. Something’s different in the air. It was really cool! I love it…

During cell, I prayed that the relationship between me and Derek will improve and be better. Also, that there will not be so much of misunderstandings but will cooperate with each other and “fight” as a unit. I felt something within my heart that something’s going to happen very soon in the relationship between Derek and me.

Cell group ended and we went for fellowship. It was great. Brian joined us for cell for the very first time. He’s a playful boy but I believe that God can change and transform a person, from a naughty, noisy person to a well behaved person.

After fellowshipping with each other, Ron, JingJie, Brian, Kaka aka Calvin and myself went down to Peninsula to look at guitars. After browsing, I took on a Takamine (model: EG10SC) guitar and asked the sales assistant to try it out for me and asked some questions. As I do not have enough for the time being, I asked JingJie to help me out for the time being.

I thank God that he did help me out for now. I will pay him whatever amount owed to him at the fastest time possible. It was a real good guitar and I love the guitar very much. I would want to use that guitar to play for cell group and if God’s willing, I’ll use that guitar to play/ write songs for God’s glory.

First guitar course:
After getting the guitar, I was running out of time. The rest of the people went on to buy handphones and clothing. There, we parted and I went on to have my very first lesson in guitar. It’s a course which I’ve longed for after two years. I am very excited yet tired as I did not rest much last night.

Not knowing what and who are there at the class, I was really pleased and glad that I have a number of friends who are teaching and learning there. In my class alone, I have XiGuang, Janice and another SOT graduate. It is a good time for me to catch up with XiGuang as he was my SOT classmate as well as a good brother in Choir too.

Though the basics were a little boring, I do want to play well in the end. If I am not faithful in the little, I’d not be faithful in the much.

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Saturday, March 05, 2005

A very short summary for the day

After walking so much, I could hardly stand properly. Was limping away and had some difficulty in using my right leg. Sigh…
Pastor Preached about next week’s healing event and also prepared our hearts to receive our healing from God. He prayed for us and I felt a sense of relieve upon my ankle and for the first time after my cast was taken out, I jumped… and felt NOT much of pain… unlike before. When I step on the floor it'll hurt... *SAD*

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Friday, March 04, 2005

Finally~~~

Wow… it does really fast that time fly… It’s Friday… Man, I am excited… Teaching Wei Keong, Calvin and Bryan… I finally have the time to do my own stuffs. Only that I do not have time to spend with my family member and cell group members.

At least today, I am able to get Mag, Ron and JingJie out. JingJie was teased by Mag so much that he was totally speechless. Ron was like happily laughing away… at JingJie when Mag teased him. I guess it was rather rash of Mag to talk to JingJie at that way. He’s still young but I understand what she meant…

We went to watch “Hitch”. It was a funny show, meaningful yet funny. Well, all of us enjoyed the show and Jingjie, Ron and I want to watch it another time… That’s if we find time to go again.

Ron and JingJie both thought that I am interested in Mag... and also thought that she's my girlfriend... Its really funny for them to think this way. Anyway, it's normal, I do not blame them as they are still young...

It's really funny of them to say that I get people's number easily. Ths is due to the fact that my friend's friend is looking for workers to work for their company, thus asked me to ask around if anyone wants to work. Then she gave me her contact number. It's ridiculous for them to think that I am interested in someone elder than me...

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Thursday, March 03, 2005

A little something in life...

It was really fun working there. The people were asking who I am etc… Work wasn’t that much now because my uncle had not told me what to do yet but I do look forward to be a great help unto him.

It does feel good to be able to work for own family members. This also creates the chance to know them better and be able to find more common things with them. Especially when I did not have much time spent with them after my secondary school… and after my granny died.

Today was a long day but fruitful one too. Ali was willing to help and the rest of the workers were willing to talk to me... They are all either elder than me or are Bengalis. I am not a racist… I have lots of friends who are Indians or Bengalis.

Popular, Here I come!
Finally I am able to get to a bookshop after so long. I've finally managed to get WeiKeong and Bryans some assesment books. Hehe... Also, the first time in my work life that I am able to get out of the office to do something.

Sweet tooth:
I am not sure why but I've been having the urge to want to have some sweets/ tidbits. I mst stop this! If not, I'd be gaining instead of losing weight. This is too much... I must reduce my sugar intake and eat a more healthy lifestyle...

I need to attain my goal this year!

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Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Second day of work

This is really interesting. When I went and walk around the factory, many noticed me. Some were curious about who am I, and some asked who I am.
I think I really need to be more wise. I need to know what to do and how to be more effective in work. Had a hard time trying to find things. I lack the tools… Still trying to do some revision on my AUTO Cad

I had a chance to witness to the accountant aunt. She seems interested in the bible and well, it's a good chance for me to witness to her... She actually got interested in the CDs I bought to work. I must find a chance to lend her the CDs.

Tuition with Calvin
- Really had compassion upon this kid.
- He’s studying so much that he hardly had time to rest (from what I see)
- Looks stone and was slow in learning. Need a breakthrough in him

Met up with Alex:
- Went back home and called Alex up for dinner.
- Went to have prata.
- Wonderful fellowship with Alex

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First day back at work...Grandfather's love

First day at work! How was it? Ehhh… I’ll leave you in suspense for now. Actually, I did not really have enough rest. Maybe it’s due to anxiety and due to the fact that I am a little unwilling to get back to work. =X
Guess I’m not given any choice. I need to get back to work. The thought of wanting to get to Israel this year have not left my mind and I would want to do my best to save up in order to get to Israel.

Ah Heng came and picked me up as usual for work. After he knew I had my own breakfast, he did not drive me to the canteen for me to get some coffee. However, it’s alright. I can go through it all with god’s help.

First day at work was alright I guess. Initially, I was rather lost and began reading my bible and read the daily devotion. I prayed silently as my entire family members were not Christians. Not that I am ashamed but I just did not want them to think that I am crazy or what.

Grandfather:
Well, I really thank God that I am working under my grandfather. I always did not have much contact with my grandfather as he seems like a very stern person. Besides, base on what my mum told me about her past and about grandfather, he seem to give me an impression that he’s unfriendly. Another reason was that my dialect’s not that good. Especially when I hear my grandfather speak in Hokkien, it’s like I am lost. It’s not due to the fact that I don’t understand hokkien but he’s hokkien is very traditional. He came from China…

Back to my story…
During lunchtime, I managed to talk a little with grandfather. He was concerned about my ankle and asked. He told me to take off my shoes and put on his slippers. I mean, yes that’s concern but I felt sense of love from him. Something I never experienced, from him, before. This was because of the barrier of language and lack of communication/ contact. However, after this “encounter” with him, I am glad that I am able to fellowship with him and also show him care.

My grandfather has three sons. The eldest is now paralyzed since he had a fall and things crushed on him two years back. On the first year he was paralyzed, I managed to persuade my aunt to let someone pray for him. I wanted but I did not have the courage to do so. In the end, I managed to get Pastor Aries to go with me to visit my uncle and pray for him. Right now, though he’s still bounded on the wheelchair and have some problems with his nerves, I am not going to give up.

Two weeks later, on the 11th March to 13th March, Rev Benny Hinn will be coming to my Church and we’ll be having service at the Singapore Indoor Stadium. I want to invite my uncle down for the healing service but I lack faith. I need God’s help. I really do. All I know is that if my uncle gets healed, I have this gut feeling that my entire household will be saved because of his healing. However, I have this doubt within me too. I thought I heard an eerie voice saying “what if he’s healed and he goes and give glory unto the heathen gods? Then things will get worse!

I need to hear from God and get wisdom from God. I really pray, with all my heart and soul that my uncle will get saved and be HEALED in Jesus’ name.

After work, I left for tuition with Calvin again. When I got home, I was really dead tired… Strange thing is that.. When I got home, though I was tired, I did not get enough rest when I hit home. Instead, I went to hunt for some food and prayed for awhile…

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