a My Walk with God - 2005 - (Moulding & testing): August 2005

My Walk with God - 2005 - (Moulding & testing)

A daily record of events that happened in my life or things that were brought to my mind and thus recorded. This site is to help me rememeber events and goals. How I used my time; my walk with God; my perspective in life, friends and family members... This blog also serves as a reflection of myself and what I have been wanting/ struggling with/ yearning for/ my up's and down's of life. Do sit back and walk this journey on how I walk life with FAITH and HONESTY with God.

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Rebuilding walls

I believe it is a time for me to rebuild my life once again. However, this time, I really need to fortify the “walls” against “enemies” so that they will never have the chance to hit me when I am at the lowest point of life.

You see, I have been struggling with a couple of areas in my life. Namely, its got to do with human nature, the things which we cannot cast out at all but need to crucify it at all days; our fleshy nature!

Of late, I have been struggling in these areas which I once was able to overcome it for weeks or even months but these couple of weeks, I’ve been yielding to them and let God down, over and over again. If you’ve been reading up or following up with my life for a period of time you’ll notice that I had written regarding this matter. I have always wanted to get my life right with God and to stay PURE! I want to be set apart to do His will.

Especially these couple of days, I’ve been drawn back to my “old nature”. When Rev Paul Chase came to preach, I was encouraged and I told Pastor Aries about this matter which has been bothering me. Immediately after the prayer meeting ended, I text messaged Pastor Aries regarding this matter. He encouraged me and told me not to give up fighting against it.

Last Friday, Pastor Aries called me up and wanted to talk to me but I was busy with work. I forgot if I should call him or that he’ll contact me. Anyway, I suppose that he’s been too tight up with the things in Church, especially when Rev Ulf was here last week.

Nonetheless, I remember in the Book of Nehemiah, there was also a time of rebuilding of the walls of Jerusalem. I want to be able to resist the enemy as much as possible. Yes, there are a lot of works to be done but I believe that it can be done. If God says that nothing is impossible for those who love Him, it means that I too can do it! It’s not for my own self but also for the people around me. There will be more tensions and struggles coming up but I WILL PUT MY TRUST IN GOD.

2 Samuel 22: 31
As for God, His way is perfect; The word of the Lord is proven; He is a shield to all who trust in Him.

Psalm 9: 10
And those who know Your name will put their trust in You; For You, Lord, have not forsaken those who seek You.

Proverbs 30: 5
Every word of God is pure; He is a shield to those who put their trust in Him.

There are many other verses in the Holy Bible which have these references but nevertheless, I will put my trust in God! Whatever He says, I will trust in His Words! I really must arise and stand strong in God’s word. No weapon formed against me shall prosper!

posted by Calvin Chung @ 2:46 PM  


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Long story short...

Gosh! It’s been about a week since I last blogged? Please pardon me and forgive me friends. I have been busy these days and also, have been fighting an "old enemy" of late as it has been "hunting" and "visiting" me these few weeks. Please keep me in prayer, thanks!

It has been a wonderful week. The Word, preached by Rev Paul Chase, Pastor Sy, Rev Ulf and Bro Jimmy still burns within my heart. Although they preached different messages but I seem to be able to grasp something from within.

If I were to put them in order, it’ll be like this:
First of all, don’t forget about the times I’ve prayed and worshipped God.
Secondly, the three types of appetites ALL humans have;
1. Hunger – type of food/ things we hunger for.
2. Thoughts – Food for thoughts, what we meditate in our mind.
3. Love – People wants to be loved and trusted.

Pastor Sy then introduced the true definition of love, as in AGAPE love, people needs:
A) Love is Acceptance.
B) Love is Accountability.
C) Love is Affirmation.


In one of Rev Ulf Ekman’s “conference”, Rev Ulf preached on 2 Timothy 3: 2 “For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy…”

Rev Ulf preached on this passage and showed us what kind of love that will be needed during the end times. Last but not least, during Bible study, Brother Jimmy taught on Repentance.

Overall, I conclude that I got to be careful of what I do and what I “meditate” on. What I think equates to what I desire and what I really want or love. Above all these “want” and love in life, I need to desire God and to love others as myself.

posted by Calvin Chung @ 11:47 AM  


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Monday, August 22, 2005

Encounters, Experiences and Self Evaluation...

What a week with God! God is indeed a GOOD God and that He KNOWS EVERYTHING in our lives! Yes, He knows even what you think or need even BEFORE you knew what you need or will think about! Yes, even the thoughts and details of things which you've never thought you'll think of too!

The past couple of days have been one which I’d term it as an adventure and fruitfulness. From Tuesday till Wednesday then to Thursday, to Friday then to Saturday’s service, all the way till today, it’s been one which opened up my eyes and mind!

Although I’ve been tied up with work and miscellaneous stuffs but my walk with God was really exciting and so real! I’m really glad too as well because by the GRACE and MERCY of God, I’ve been able to walk a week, free from what I was tied to, the past couple of weeks. I am really glad that I am able to present myself pure before God this week!

Although there were many events the past couple of days BUT its nonetheless, great days! It’s a time where I felt I walked the closest with God.

First, on Tuesday, I had an encounter with God when I started fasting for 12 hours. Wednesday, I fasted for another 12 hours. I really want to have a change in my life and I do not want to be the same! I have come to God with problems and I want to KICK AWAY one habit! One very bad habit but till then, I wasn’t able to overcome it. (I WILL overcome it! "Greater is He, who is IN ME, than he, who is in the world")

God is GOOD! When I fasted, He gave me the strength and energy to last through. Besides that, He is faithful and just! He preserved me all these while! Then something happened at home.

Sometime back, my parents began to change the “settings” of the living room and they went on changing the “FengShui” of the entire house, except my room! Anyway, something strange and interesting happened. If I did not remember wrongly, I’ve written something about it before. If I never, then, I should tell it now…

Some weeks back, they changed the “FengShui” of the entire living room. Interestingly, it was about the same time when I wanted to be serious with God. Back then, I was doing a lot of funny stuffs. I went back to my old ways BUT GOD gave Pastor Kong the words to speak/ preach and it ministered to me. Shortly, Rev Mike came along and I felt ministered by the Word and the move of the Holy Spirit.

I had been waging warfare in the Spiritual atmosphere in my family. When I began to pray stronger than before, things began to change. Interestingly, I saw some changes in behavior in, first my sister, then my parents. However, this change was not something which I’d want to see…

I remember clearly that it’s during the deliverance time that they started behaving strangely. This was especially evident whenever I stood in front of the altar, using Olive oil to sprinkle upon them, casting them in Jesus’ name. What happens was that after I’m done… My sister would keep looking at the altar whenever she passes by, and clean it every now and then. This is really freaky! YIKES!!!

I must engage into a more intense and fierce warfare in the house. I cannot and God will not allow the evil one to come and destory my love ones. (I am not being Super spiritual. If you witness it yourself of what is going on, you'll know what I really mean)

Besides that, cell group on Friday was one which I will not forget! During cell, the entire atmosphere was not good at all. It began with the prayer meeting. It was like so weak and so dry in the prayer meeting. ChangChin was like constantly trying to bash through the atmosphere. Maybe it was due to the fact that he’s to lead the prayer meeting and thus…

Even when Sister Gillian came into the cell and “wrap” up the prayer meeting, the entire atmosphere was really strange and odd!

The Praise was not really good as everyone seems to be distracted and there wasn’t a sense of unity within the cell. It certainly wasn’t a nice feeling at all. However, during Worship, things began to change. The entire atmosphere began to change for the better. When worshippers of God began to bow down on knees and lifting hands to worship God and focus upon Jesus, that’s when God will move within the cell group.

I felt the touch of heaven! It’s really cool and amazing! What I’ve experienced on Tuesday’s prayer meeting was also experienced there and then! This time, in a greater way and the duration was longer session.

When it was time to exercise Spiritual gifts, we waited upon God. Finally, when it was time for us to give a word of encouragement, God gave me a burden; the burden of passion for the lost and felt most of them are losing the zeal and love for God and the cell group. I really want to see something done in the cell group. I want to pray harder and longer for the cell; to see a breakthrough in the cell group!

After I’ve said my part, Sister Gillian, too felt the same way and encouraged the cell not to give up on reaching out to the lost and lose the passion for God. When I heard these, I was really encouraged as it’s in the will of God and that I’ve not gone to the wrong direction.

On Saturday, the Word from Sy Rogers was really great! He shared so much that I’d really hope that Brenda was there to listen to what was preached. I really hope that one day, she’d be in God’s will; to have the correct type of attractions instead of what she is now.

Actually, there wasn’t much on Saturday but the number of people attending service from cell was really discouraging. Why am I so concerned about numbers? People count! Everyone is precious in the sight of God and even if one day, Peter were to fall away from God, I’d feel the same too.

Right now, Calvin Chan, HaoJun, Makus, Rodney, Karen, Elina, GuiSheng, Adora, Desmond, Sherman, Jasmine, LiYing etc, who once were regular, did not even turn up for service. Yes, they may say that they are Christians but how can one be when they are not in fellowship or in the House of God anymore? How can one say that they belong to a certain citizenship when they are not even aware of the things happening in their own lands?

Sunday was really awesome! I went for Foundational Truth Bible Study with QiuPing. Initially, I felt that it was a complete waste of time and was thinking of not attending it. However, I felt challenged and there’s a need for me to go as well. I really thank God that I went!

Although the things preached were more or less the same, but I was glad as God reveals some other things into my life, to speak to my situations. Even when I was on my way to Church, I was listening to Sy Roger’s CD. It was such a blessing! I really thank God for His people and the media He uses. It’s really a blessing to me especially when the Word preached was something which I’ve been longing for a long time!

I do not confess that I know or understand the ENIIRE counsel of God nor do I boast that I know the depth, height, width or length of God’s Grace and Mercy but I am SURE that it’s more than enough for me! If it’s more than enough for me, why is it not enough for you, who is reading my blog?

There is a longing in every single heart. Everyone have a need of ACCEPTANCE, ACCOUNTABILITY and AFFIRMATION.

What did I think I went or do wrong for the week? (In thoughts or actions)

Self Reflection:
Actually, I feel that I was rather proud and felt insecure about the things I face. I was actually unhappy with the Sister Gillian as she chose ChangChin instead of me. Also, I doubted if it was God’s intention for me to go Bible school. If it’s not, why did I go through it all?

Sometimes I feel that I’ve been overlooked by people and that I’m just an ordinary member in the cell; maybe, will someday turn into wall paper together as time goes by. God forbid it to happen!

God is really interesting! When I was thinking about these questions, He listens! When I am done with asking, He replies! I’m really astounded by God’s knowledge and how He answers me.

I am not able to change from level one to level ten because if I do so, I’d be like a plant without roots. Also, the Children of Israel did not possess the Promised Land the moment they came out of Egypt! God told them that if He did so, the beast of the fields will, in turn possess the lands if He were to allow it. Likewise, if I were to grow to a Spiritual giant, I have to take it step by step; allowing my roots to sink into the Word of God first then to grow higher. If I were to step into leadership now, then I’d not have the ability to do what a GOOD leader would do!

While chatting with Hazel via MSN, she said something which really enlightens my mind more. In the midst of conversation, she said “I remember someone once said that... your ministry will only go as far as your character can bring u.” That’s it! I really need to have an URGENCY to build up my character and stop behaving like a baby!

posted by Calvin Chung @ 11:58 PM  


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Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Unforgettable Experience and lesson

Tuesday night’s prayer meeting was unforgettable! I really cannot forget the very tangible Presence of God.

Rickson went to the prayer meeting together with me. It was during the time when we prayed together for services One, Two and our own individual cell groups, that I experienced God.

It was the same feelings I experienced years back when Sister Jo laid her hands on my head to pray for me back in 1997’s cell group. The difference this time is, I’m the one doing the praying while Rickson is agreed with me.

When both Rickson and I were praying, I felt my entire being numbed. However, I felt the numbest at my hands and head. Although I felt numb but that was a really nice feeling to experience. (It’s not due to the lack of blood/ activities but it’s a feeling… beyond understanding.) I really love that feeling! I believe I understand why Psalmist, King David, said that “One day in the House of God, is better than anywhere else on earth”. What more can one say, when he/she is being touched by God? It is an undeserved “reward”/ privilege to be touch by God. The love, mercy and grace shown upon my life, is something which I WILL NEVER want to forget!

After we’ve prayed for the Church, Rev. Kong, Sun and Rev. Ulf, within approximately thirty minutes, Rev Paul Chase brought a word of season to me. (I felt that is the Word from God to me). I felt really ministered and really want to go to the “battlefield” again.

This was the message preached:
Title of the message:

Have you lost your cutting edge?

2 Kings 6: 1 – 3
1 And the sons of the prophets said to Elisha, "See now, the place where we dwell with you is too small for us.2 Please, let us go to the Jordan, and let every man take a beam from there, and let us make there a place where we may dwell." So he answered, "Go." 3 Then one said, "Please consent to go with your servants." And he answered, "I will go."

When I heard of this passage, immediately, the word, “anointing” came into my mind. Borrowed anointing… I questioned if I “borrowed” the anointing of the people around me to reach out to God or did I really have the anointing of God to minister to people around me.

Nevertheless, Rev Paul then shared these: (I added in somethings which came to my mind and modified some points shared)

The level we grow or increases do depend upon the kind of relationship we have. If we are not close with our parents, naturally, quarrels and disagreements will exist. Likewise, what is true in the natural is also true spiritually. When we keep fellowshipping with God, seeking His face everyday, we’ll be more and more like Him and also, will be able to know what His heart’s desires/ plans for us.

The relationships we have, do affect our destinies in life. This is especially true. Whom will a Father give to most, when He wants to give inheritance to His sons, who will He give to; the one who’s closest to Him or the one who’s not?

It does not take one to be a genius or a rocket scientist to know the answer. If one is WISE, they would choose to give to the one who’s closest to.

Also, whom will one confide in? One who’s closest to you or one who’s not even a friend? I realized nowadays, the trend would be to confide in those who are not close; which I find it really “interesting”.

In every form of relationships, there is a “universal” law which will always run in it. It’s called the law of “change”. Bearing in mind that there is a law of “change” in very form and walks of life, we can lose our “edge” without even realizing it.

Humans are habitual beings. There are times when we will lose our “edge”, thus not being able to be as influential/ sharp or get the type of results we used to have, when we have the anointing of God upon us.

The anointing is the edge I have in life. I can’t do anything out of a routine or by own personal power/ wisdom for it’ll all be ineffective and might even fail, despite, by reason, it should work out.

2 Kings 6: 4
4 So he went with them. And when they came to the Jordan, they cut down trees. 5 But as one was cutting down a tree, the iron ax head fell into the water; and he cried out and said, "Alas, master! For it was borrowed."

Over here, this certain son of certain prophet was cutting down trees with the rest of the people. There’s nothing wrong in helping or participating. The thing about this person was that he was using a borrowed axe.

This person, should, by right, be anointed and should have joy, peace and an edge in life. However, he lost/ did not bring his own axe but was borrowed!

He might be thinking within his heart “This is just another routine, its ok not to bring my own axe. It’ll get blunt when I am to use my own and it’s all a hassle to sharpen it. I’ll go borrow an axe and I will be able to avoid the trouble of cleaning and sharpening mine.”

However, little did anyone know what will happen to the borrowed axe as it was not known to them what will happen the following day! When the day came for them to Jordan to fall trees, this son of prophet did not realized what is to come. The very moment the axe head flew off, he shout “Alas, Master! For it was borrowed! This man did not treasure what was his but took advantage, out of comfort sake, he borrowed an axe.

In ministry, we ought to realize that the anointing we have is ENTRUSTED by God to us, for ministry! Not something to be taken for granted! The anointing is given and it is us who will maintain and keep that anointing, to grow it, to guard it! Never ever let the devil spit at your face; to despise you! Don’t ever let the devil be the one to spit at your face! Be the one to spit into the face of the evil one and be the one to intimidate the evil one!

What happens when we begin to lose our anointing? We start to search for that something, not realizing that we have already lost it. The devil will then take advantage of this moment and starts to put doubt into our hearts and mind. With doubts “flooding” in the mind and the person not turning to God for counsel, the person starts to get into “identity crisis”.

Let’s look at Jesus. From the Gospel of Matthew all the way to the Gospel of John, He went about everywhere and anywhere to whomever who needs His touch! He was prepared.

Have you ever seen any soldier fighting a battle without being ready for a battle/ caught surprised? Did not the Bible say that we OUGHT to be READY, IN AND OUT OF SEASON?

Therefore, conclusion is that, the anointing is to be worn upon our bodies like clothing. It has to be upon us, daily and every second!

In order for us to be leader, we ought to BE LIKE JESUS!

Notice that whenever Jesus was out ministering, people are always reaching out to Him and always wanting Him to go to their house for dinner? He is like a celebrity BUT MORE!

Now, know what I meant by “BE LIKE JESUS?” Be the one who will minister to others, to help others, to heal others! Don’t be the one who sit by Gate Beautiful, waiting for things to happen! Be the one to make things happen!

2 Kings 6: 6
6 So the man of God said, "Where did it fall?" And he showed him the place. So he cut off a stick, and threw it in there; and he made the iron float.

After the axe head flew off, the son of prophet went to a man of God. The man of God asked a “million dollar” question to the son of prophets. He asked “Where did it fall?”

When ministry/ life become a routine and it does not bring forth results, we got to be truthful to ourselves to find out what went wrong. Jesus said “They shall know the TRUTH and the TRUTH shall SET THEM FREE”

Truths always set people free! It brings freedom to, both the “offender” and those who wants to help. BE HONEST AND TRUTHFUL!

1. NOTICE where we lost it.
2 Kings 6: 6
6 So the man of God said, "Where did it fall?" And he showed him the place. So he cut off a stick, and threw it in there; and he made the iron float.
- Where we lost that passion, to who and what caused the “downfall”?

If I were to tell you that I am in your country, lost! You too, will ask me that same “million dollar” question “where are you now?” Is it going to help when I say, “I don’t know” or “I think I am here/ there?” Definitely NOT!

If I do not know where I am, how am I going to expect others to know where I am or where I’m lost at? Likewise, if I do not know where I am, how am I going to go to my destinies?

2. We GET HELP from someone “HIGHER” than us.
2 Kings 6: 6
6 So the man of God said, "Where did it fall?" And he showed him the place. So he cut off a stick, and threw it in there; and he made the iron float.
This man seeks for help from those who can help him. He HUMBLED himself and let the man of God GUIDE him. He did not care about his “outer man” or pride.
Never be too concern about their “outer man” than to “STRENGTHENING” their inner man!

3. Go to someone who still have that “cutting edge”
2 Kings 6: 6
6 So the man of God said, "Where did it fall?" And he showed him the place. So he cut off a stick, and threw it in there; and he made the iron float.
As mentioned in the passage, the man of God cut off a stick. This shows that this person is still sharp and not routine in life! He has the ability to impact and to touch lives!

The person who challenges you to be better than what/ who you are today is the person who is able to help you. Be humble, teachable and have a willing heart/ attitude to learn. In the midst of learning, build a dependency upon God.

God wants us to be Earth Shakers and History Makers! How can we shake the earth when we cannot impact? If we cannot impact others, how can we be History makers?

Amen? Think of what is written and apply it to your life. I'm sure it'll be a blessing to you, regardless you believe in Jesus or not!

posted by Calvin Chung @ 3:44 PM   0 Comments


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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Anything Praise Worthy?

What happened today is really worth mentioning and certainly able to give all glory and honor onto God!

I’m so glad that I was able to fulfill my pledge to God. Once again, God have proven Himself to be true to me in such a time as this.

Initially, I was rather uncertain about the amount to give onto the building fund when the long awaited “Arise and Build” Champaign began this year. I fasted, prayed and prayed for sometime but was not able to confirm the amount that God wants me to give.

I remembered that it was around the starting of July that I was still thinking about the amount that I want to give to God, as a token of my love to Him. Something hit me when I went to pay up the suit which I specially tailored made for Bro Colin’s wedding. I paid a heavy price for it. It cost me almost half my salary and in the end, I find myself in lack. As a result of it, I was thinking of how to get cash so as to survive and was terminated from SNP because of the petty things, which my, then, superior felt that I was rude to him.

First and foremost, I give respect to everyone and anyone I face. Even in my cell, there’s one member, by the name of Peter, he is a poor guy. He doesn’t get to bath often as well. If I can get along with him and even respect him, how much more with people who are better than him. If the person don’t show attitude to me and bear grudges/ be petty towards me, I’d never disrespect that person. Also, I do not say things which anyone have not done before or said to me.

Anyway, back to my testimony on the FAITHFULNESS of God. Last week, I was struggling with the idea of fulfilling the building fund and paying my tithe unto God. It was a real great struggle. I was actually left with $270 in my bank and if I were to pay my tithe and fulfill my pledge, I’d be left with $50 for the rest of the two weeks.

When Saturday came, I went to do what I was to do; to fulfill my vow unto God. After paying my tithe and building fund, I was really tight in cash and did not manage to spend as much as before. It was a sacrifice. After service, I joined my cell for a moment and went on to meet with David and the rest of the guitarist, whom I got to know earlier on this year.

As I’m already rather late, I took a cab. (We were supposed to meet at 1930hrs but I reached there at about 2100hrs.) After taking cab, I was much tighter with my cash flow and really did not spend much.

After having dinner, they suggested to go Haagen-Dazs for ice cream. When I heard that, I was rather surprised and, not wanting to let them feel disappointed, I joined them. However, I did not order anything, even though some of them wanted to bless me.

Yesterday, I almost forgot to bring cash out when I went to work. I brought $15 to work but spent $10 on taxi. I really cannot take it anymore. I can’t anyhow spend my cash, especially on cabs. While working, I looked unto the calendar and realized that I still have two weeks to go before my pay comes. I was really sad but glad that I’ve fulfilled my tithing and building but sad as I do not know how to survive my other two weeks with $50 dollars. I really cannot imagine.

During lunch, I went to the nearest ATM to draw out some cash in case I do not have enough. I had this feeling that I need to check the amount I’ve left with and to my surprise, I found that there were an additional $170 in my account!

I checked my receipt for the building fund and tithing as I thought the amount has been rejected or whatsoever, only to realize that it’s all approved. I am so glad and happy. If this is not God, who else can it be, to be able to do such a thing in my life? Giving me an increase when I needed it most!

God is true to His word and will never fail. He is the same yesterday, today and forever! Really thank God. Truly, those who sow in tears shall certainly reap in joy! Praise His name!

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Monday, August 15, 2005

What’s worship?

Today’s service was really good. The entire Presence of God filled the entire Church and I really love that! We have some wonderful time Praising and Worshiping God. Yes, though there are many youths in the service, but it does not mean that being young, they cannot be Godly!

I really love the Presence of God. I need more and more of God daily! Benjamin was seated beside me and this time round, the seats we have gotten is really good but it can be better!

When Pastor Kong preached the Word, I was really touched and was reminded that Pastor Kong did preach that Word before. It was during 2003’s emerge conference that he preached that same Word. The difference is that, Pastor played the guitar and sung. The song goes…

I HAVE COME TO BOW DOWN
AT YOUR FEET LORD JESUS
IN YOUR PRESENCE
THERE IS FULLNESS OF JOY

THERE IS NOTHING, THERE IS NO ONE
TO COMPARE WITH YOU
I TAKE PLEASURE IN WORSHIPPING YOU LORD
(I TAKE PLEASURE IN WORSHIPPING) (I TAKE PLEASURE IN WORSHIPPING YOU LORD)

This song touched and moved my heart. I still remember the song as it was sung yesterday. It seemed so near, yet… it was about 2 years back that it happened.

Oh yes, the Word of God moved in my life and I really want to worship God over again. Coming to Him just as I am, surrendering to His hands. Although there are things which I am still struggling with but I do wish to be able to come into His hands and be made into the person whom He wants me to be.

After service, I joined cell group for a short while and went on my way to meet up with David, Michelle, Deorrine, Catherine and Shu Xian. It was fun fellowshipping with them. Really enjoy being with them but I wasn’t able to afford to eat what they had as… I was very full and also, I am on budget. Do not have much to spare as I’ve just paid my tithe and building fund.

At the end of the day, I went home with Deorrine. She gave me a lift home as I was really broke…

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Friday, August 12, 2005

16th Anniversary

Sunday's 16th anniversary was awesome. The Presence of God was at the indoor stadium and I really felt God so close! This time, I wasn't in the front of the queue. Rickson, JingJie, Ron etc were there earlier than me. They got about 20 over seats for the entire cell group.

Things to be happy was that there were a number of friends who came for the events. People who have not been coming to Church, IE: Calvin Chan also came to join us. I'm glad about this!

I do really look forward for the cell to move to greater heights. I don't want to see my cell group stagnant for another 5years before we multiplied few months back. There are positive sides for this multiplications. First and foremost, W332 grew stronger and more members were added to them. Secondly, N20 (my cell) also grew bigger.

Although there are a lot of youths in my cell, I do really want to help them out in their Spiritual life and to see them be on fire for God. Reaching out to people around them and to influence them.

I believe that this will happen and nothing is impossible with God! If God's willing, I do want to see the youths in N20, rise up and bring the passion for God to their campus/ schools/ work place.

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Saturday, August 06, 2005

FIGHT! Fight! FIGHT!!! Fight a fight!!!

This is a long awaited “composition” I've been wanting to write. I did not write yesterday as I wanted to see if I could be able to sustain till the time I've given to God; to fast from monday till friday, 6am-6pm.

God is really faithful! Despite not having food for more than 24hrs on thursday, I was able to last till yesterday, 6pm. In fact, I did not only end my fast at 6pm but lasted till about 7pm! If this is not God, who else can it be? I've done my part for the cell group. Now, it's time for God to make His move. I really pray that tomorrow's total attendance for cell group would be 34. God is interested in numbers because people counts! Every single soul is important. God desire all to be saved and none to perish!

I'm very excited and am looking forward to the 16th anniversary tomorrow. I do look forward to a high retention of those friends and those who have backsliden from God. I desire for them to trust in God and know what He plans for their lives.

People like LiYing, Rodney, Benjamin, HaoJun, Calvin Chan, Desmond Cheng, Sherman, Makus, Elina, Karen and various others will come back to God and give their commitments to God once again.

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Friday, August 05, 2005

Champions drink...

Gosh... I feel so weak! After fasting (beverage fast) for about close to five days (monday till friday) and a wednesday full day fast, I feel so drained, weak but closer to God.

I do not know what's going on with my body but do feel giddy and feel weak. Maybe my body cannot take it or it's just another ploy of the devil. Nevertheless, I am determined to fast even it's in the final hours! Have been drinking milo but... Anyway, it's my sixth cup for the day! Yes, I feel weak but I enjoy the time with God.

Yes, I have told God about this fast and will trust God that He will help me through it all. Not presuming but am walking by faith, not by sight!

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Thursday, August 04, 2005

My first... my last... My joy... my agony...

I'm filled with mixed feelings. One occasion to rejoice about and the other, which broke my heart...
I reached home at about 1800hrs after work. As I walked pass the living room into my room, my dad who was doing the ironing, told me that there's something on the sofa for me. Initially, I thought it was a letter but to my surprise, I saw a box.

When I took a closer look at the box, I realized that it was a Canon A4000 digital camera!!! I was really excited and happy that I finally have a digital camera! It's been a long while since I wanted a digital camera. This time, I have it, FOR FREE!!! Yipee!!! I really thank God for granting me the desires of my heart!

After receiving such wonderful gift from my dad, I went off to teach Calvin Koh. While on my way down, I was smiling and was really glad that God indeed blessed me with one digital camera. I have been longing to take a photo of my students and myself, so as to keep it as a momento.

Upon reaching Calvin's place, he was lazing around, watching the television. He came and opened the door for me. As usual, his siblings (4 & 5 years old) came asking me if I have sweets, the very moment I stepped into the house. His brother, went behind me to grab my bag and started to follow me while I walk towards the room, to give tuition.

Things went on as usual as I started to get Calvin to check if he has any undone work. Normally, he would have to learn spellings on tuesday (chinese) and wednesday (english). However, there was no english spelling words given by his teacher.

As a result of it, I let him do some assessments so as to gauge his memory for the things he learnt previously. Shortly, his maid came into the room to pass me the tuition fees. This time, was different from the previous times. She informed me that this will be the last lesson with Calvin. I was rather shocked and sad upon knowing this piece of news.

In my mind, there was a battle going on. One side, I was concerned about the building fund but I do not know why but there was another voice. It spoke to me that God will make a way and He will provide. I was glad but sad as I will not be able to fellowship and teach Calvin anymore.

Soon, his parents came home. After the lesson, I prayed for him, that God will do a work in his life and that God will show him that He is true and will never fail.Before I left, his mum spoke to me and told me the reason why she wants me to stop teaching him.

The reason was really simple and I agreed with her. Calvin is really too dependant upon me and he only does his work whenever I am there or when his parents wants him to do so. He will wait for people to provide answers and will rely upon those who can give him solutions. It took his mum sometime and it was about 2029hrs when I left their place.

He cried while his mum scolded him. I know how he must have felt. I was there and been in his shoes before too. I was like him when I was young. Before I went home, I talked to him and gave him a hug. I don't want him to feel condemned and unloved. The way his mum scolded him, it really felt as if she does not love him at all; but I understand how she feels. I explained to him... I really do not know if he understands but I really pray with all my heart that he will understand.

If God's willing, I hope that there will be a change in his attitude and who knows, I'll be back teaching him again?

posted by Calvin Chung @ 10:18 PM  


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Wednesday, August 03, 2005

I'll lay my hands on...

I'm excited to share with you this. Whatever God says in the Bible is true and He is not a man that He should lie. When He says that I am the head and not the tail, I better believe it! If He says in His words that I can be a WORLD SHAKER and a HISTORY MAKER, I better grab that very promise/ word! If He says that when we pray for the sick, they WILL BE HEALED; the oppressed/ demon-possessed, they SHALL BE SET FREE!

I am so excited about these because last week monday (25th July 2005), when I was giving tuition to Calvin Koh, I saw a bandage over his left eye. When I asked him what happened to him, he told me that he fell in school and as a result from the fall, he injured his left eye. I really thank God that God did not allow Calvin Koh's left eye to get more damages, which might result to loss of sight. While the lesson with him came to an end, I laid my hands over his left eye and prayed for him.

On the 26th July 2005, I went to teach him again. When I asked him how his eye feels, he told me that after I prayed for him, he felt that the wounded part got better. After hearing this, I was filled with excitement! Towards the end of the lesson on tuesday night, I prayed for him before I left. However, on wednesday, I wasn't able to make it for lesson. (Need time to relax)

Anyway, yesterday, when I reached his home for tuition, I did not notice that his bandage is taken off. When I looked at him, I felt something missing. Now I know what happened... The bandage is taken off his left eye. What happened next was really interesting! I asked him about his eye, he told me that after praying for him on tuesday, he recovered on wednesday! GLORY TO GOD!

I really thank God that He is moving in his life in this manner. The best thing is that... he is from a buddhist background and is a vegetarian. Cool right? God indeed shows that He loves EVERYONE and ALL HUMANS. God loves, He really desire everyone to know His GREAT LOVE!

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