I've had enough... What stinking attitude!
Earlier, my parents tried to talk to me but I don't know what's wrong with me. I got so disappointed with them that I even refused to talk to them. I felt anger bottled up within myself and I left home unhappy when it's time for me to go and teach Calvin.
Before I left, dad was calling me. I showed him attitude. This is really bad and it STINKS!!! What in the world am I doing? Why am I showing such attitue towards my very own dad? I am no longer young!!! What CHILDISH behavior!
Normally, I would be smiling or be happy when I got out of family and when I reached Calvin's place. However, I could not smile at all. I can't feel the presence of God at all. It's all my stupid attitude that causes it all. I should heed what was being said on Saturday. I ought to lift it up unto God and let go of it.
After teaching Calvin, I decided to give my aunt a call. I am so glad that she took the call because I tried to call her earlier but she wasn't home earlier. Now, I am able to tell her my decision. I've had enough and I do not want to hate my parents and myself because of money. Nothing in the world is able to get me another mum/ dad who gave me this life. Of course, God is the One who gives life but I must respect my parents in this. I guess its time for me to throw in the towel. I really cannot take it anymore. Finally, I told my aunt... I want to quit... She said its ok and I hung up.
I felt so relieved when I got it off my chest. I felt happier... When I got home, I seeked for God's help and asked God to help me to submit myself to His hands. I do not want to grieve my parents in such little things. I want to be a better person who is responsible and mature. I am a grown up now. Not a child anymore. I cannot just escape from problems but face it. I cannot say that I love God if I cannot do what God says. To love one another, just as how, I have loved myself.
Before I went to bed, I cried before God and gave Him all my problems and worries. I also asked God to forgive me and give me the chance to repent; to make up with my parents.
Before I left, dad was calling me. I showed him attitude. This is really bad and it STINKS!!! What in the world am I doing? Why am I showing such attitue towards my very own dad? I am no longer young!!! What CHILDISH behavior!
Normally, I would be smiling or be happy when I got out of family and when I reached Calvin's place. However, I could not smile at all. I can't feel the presence of God at all. It's all my stupid attitude that causes it all. I should heed what was being said on Saturday. I ought to lift it up unto God and let go of it.
After teaching Calvin, I decided to give my aunt a call. I am so glad that she took the call because I tried to call her earlier but she wasn't home earlier. Now, I am able to tell her my decision. I've had enough and I do not want to hate my parents and myself because of money. Nothing in the world is able to get me another mum/ dad who gave me this life. Of course, God is the One who gives life but I must respect my parents in this. I guess its time for me to throw in the towel. I really cannot take it anymore. Finally, I told my aunt... I want to quit... She said its ok and I hung up.
I felt so relieved when I got it off my chest. I felt happier... When I got home, I seeked for God's help and asked God to help me to submit myself to His hands. I do not want to grieve my parents in such little things. I want to be a better person who is responsible and mature. I am a grown up now. Not a child anymore. I cannot just escape from problems but face it. I cannot say that I love God if I cannot do what God says. To love one another, just as how, I have loved myself.
Before I went to bed, I cried before God and gave Him all my problems and worries. I also asked God to forgive me and give me the chance to repent; to make up with my parents.
posted by Calvin Chung @ 12:53 AM
Email me: calvin.othniel@gmail.com
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